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Mainline Mama
By Keeonna HarrisAmistad Press: 224 pages, $27
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When Keeonna Harris was 15, her life swerved sharply astray.
Harris grew to become pregnant. Then, earlier than she might come to phrases with the life-changing occasion, her boyfriend, Jason, was sentenced to 22 years in jail for a violent carjacking and capturing incident. Two years later, in 1998, she married Jason at Calipatria State Jail.
The Los Angeles born-and-raised writer particulars her expertise as a guardian with an incarcerated associate in her memoir, “Mainline Mama” — out Feb. 11— a weak and fierce have a look at jail reform and the ladies affected by imprisonment. It spares no private and political questions and provocations, daring readers to problem their prejudices across the position and nature of jails, and the stereotype of hard-boiled, harmful prisoners.
Harris has obtained a number of honors, together with fellowships with PEN America, Hedgebrook and Haymarket Books, in addition to Tin Home, Baldwin for the Arts and Edith Wharton residencies.
“Writing the book helped me heal a lot of these parts of myself, because the prison system has basically been like a family member to me, right?” Harris says. “It’s been in my life since I was a child, then [been] there for my 1737565701 ex-husband and my family. It’s the third party always in your life, so it’s not just you and a loved one; you’re in a relationship with the prison too. I had to sit with those feelings during writing the book. And even though I’ve been through trying times, I’m resilient. I’m a product of Los Angeles, which showed me how to get up and dust myself off.”
Harris spoke with The Instances on Jan. 13, when town was beset by fires.
“Even though I’m currently in Seattle, all of my family is in California so it’s been gut-wrenching to watch my city burn like this. People say if you can make it in New York, you can make it anywhere, but I think that about California.”
Harris says she’s discovered peace with the maturity she’s lived, intertwined with the jail system. It has enabled her to satisfy folks like herself, and he or she needs girls to know that “prison doesn’t define you.”
That realization took time. As a pregnant teenager, Harris thought all of the doorways of alternative would slam shut.
Her 15-year-old self can be delighted by the lady she has grow to be, Harris says.
“It almost makes me start crying because everything I do in my life is for her,” she says. “When I advocate for myself, my family, my community, it’s all for her, and she’s smiling because she thought it was over for her.”
Harris remembers being an overachiever as a baby and aspiring to grow to be an obstetrician. “I was on a roll all through elementary and junior high because my goal was to graduate from high school to 4.0 [GPA]. I wanted to go to Spelman College to become a doctor.
“When I got pregnant, I felt like my life was over. I immediately became an adult, so I didn’t think that becoming a doctor was my life anymore. I thought, ‘I’m gonna raise my son. I’m gonna get a regular job.’ I thought all my hard work was for nothing. I thought it was over for me.”
In line with the Jail Coverage Initiative, a criminal-justice public coverage suppose tank, greater than 1.9 million folks are incarcerated within the U.S. on any given day, at a staggering value of $182 billion per yr, and lots of of these prisoners — particularly in California, Texas and Florida — are Black, non-Hispanic males. In line with the nonprofit, “California locks up a higher percentage of its people than almost any democratic country on Earth.”
Harris is aware of the ins and outs of the difficult U.S. jail system, each from an educational and a harrowingly private perspective.
“Unfortunately, we’re in the age of mass incarceration,” she says. “That’s how our society deals with our social ills. I’m not an exception; I was not the only one there with a child, by far. There were thousands of us. It’s very jarring to see and understand. I’ve met many women, and even though it’s traumatizing on prison grounds and we’re often not treated well, it was so beautiful to watch us come together and mother each other, to help each other raise our children, and they became my second family since we saw them every weekend.”
Harris credit remedy with serving to her by way of her lowest factors.
“There was a time when I felt like I was going to completely unravel, and that was after I decided to divorce Jason, which was finalized in December 2015,” she says. “After I decided to leave and work slowed down, I really reflected over my whole life, and I was really depressed. I felt I’d lost so much time, and I questioned myself and my decisions. Therapy gave me clarity and perspective, and it helped me to realize that all the shame I’d been carrying never belonged to me. It was imposed on me by other people or society, whether it was being shamed for being a teen mom or being shamed for marrying somebody in prison.”
Harris is unabashedly an abolitionist.
“I think this whole system is ridiculous. We have so many things that are making most folks go to prison, and things that we can change, which is education or putting money into after-school programs. … And most folks are not in jail for crazy things. Most folks are trying to survive, [and] we need to start really focusing on things that are the issue, which is class disparity, inequality, education and healthcare.”
There aren’t any imminent indicators of reform, she provides.
“I’ve been connected to many people in prison, and while they’re there, they’re not getting the help they need. They’re not getting therapy, and they’re not learning real skills that are transferable to society for when they come home. You’re basically setting folks up for failure.”
Harris, who’s at the moment engaged on her subsequent nonfiction e-book, says “Mainline Mam” is “a love letter to Black and brown girls and women.”
“I wish I had that when I was growing up, to know I wasn’t by myself.”
Then, after all, there’s a very powerful folks in Harris’ life: her 5 youngsters, who vary in age from 5 to 29.
“When I look at them, it’s a little unreal,” she mentioned. “Especially with the older children, I realize I’ve been a mom longer than I haven’t been, and I think, ‘Where did the years go?’
“I’m looking forward to them reading this book and getting to know me for real. My prayer is that they really see why I’ve made some of the decisions that I have, and it was all for them. They’ve always been at the center of my life. They are the reason why I was dead set on surviving.”
